eXcited for yesterday ---> eXpectation for tomorrow

270808 -- Today is a moody day for mii which I don't have any expectation for today. Yesterday all my frenz say I'm too excited that I did alot of crazy things and always laugh! May be is because of I know that the charming is come from Penang (where come from the same place with mii!haha..) and also he is not younger than mii!!! Now at least I know where he come from and his age, so I'm quite satisfied at this stage. But I really hope that I can know more about him. Haih.. My fren like not so willing to intro him to mii!!! So now I must depend on myself de... Depend on my fren really can die!!! So he also can't depend on mii to teach him!!! Depend on mii you also can die!!!
Tomorrow is the last day for Business Statistic lecture, I hope that charming will attend the class. But usually he will skip before exam wan. Haiz... Tomorrow is the last day means that tomorrow is my last chance to see him in this semester. Next semester he is not longer the 1st year student, he will have 3 months holiday before he doing his start his second year program. That means after 4 months i just can see him because next semester is the short semester for mii where the period for the semester is 2 months. Hey... So LONG man... Really can't wait for it!!!
Charming ah Charming!!!! Do you know that I want to know you??? These few days, mii and my frenz did it so obvious de... Don't know you notice it or not??? Or do you notice mii in class??? Hope that these question I will get the answer soon!!! I will wait the day come!!!

feel gUilTy~~dowN***

Today already 230808, but I still haven't start to look at my book!!! Hey...my exam will begin at 020908... ONE MORE WEEK ONLY!!! What happen to mii??? Why I don't have mood to study??? I shouldn't think so much!!! Must work hard in my studies!!! Can't fail in my any single subject!!! If fail then HOW??? RM 1500 leh per subject... I really can't afford it. Too EXPENSIVE for mii!!! haih...
Just left one week!!! How to memorize my Marketing text book??? So thick man!!! At first I really think that Marketing is a very easy subject!!! But now I feel that it's the most difficult subject to mii!!! I really guilty that i didn't do revision for my marketing before. Now last minute de, HOW HOW HOW???? Can anyone teach mii???? Now i Really want to cry... I can't take the pressure!!! Now the pressure I face is MUCH MUCH more than what I faced during my STPM!!! PLS HELP mii my ANGEL!!!
If continue like this, I think my exam sure GONE wan!!! Can't concentrate in what I do then just wait to fail!!! Papa and Mama, sorry!!! I think leelee can't do well in her exam!!! SORRY!!! But then, I will try my best to concentrate in this one week!!! Hope that i can cope it!!! Let's pray for mii!!! sadhu..sadhu..sadhu...

我和你

曾经那么相爱的我和你，就因为一时冲动而分手了！而如今却因为害怕对方而不敢再次的尝试。这段时间里你的改变真的很多！而你的改变却让我越来越不认识你！这种改变也让我感到很害怕！因为以前一向做事认真的你，现在却变得吊儿郎当，什么事都随随便便，这让我感到很反抗！我不知道为何你会变成这样，有可能是因为你受到她的影响吧！你知道吗，这让我很心痛！这种感觉真的很痛很痛！我真的很想把以前的你找回来，不知道现在的你还会给我机会把真正的你找回来吗？
以前的你是那么的踏实，现在的你却那么的虚荣。这使到你我之间产生了一种很莫名其妙的距离感！这种距离感让我感到很可怕，因为不知何时你会嫌弃我！我真的很喜欢踏实的你，因为你的踏实让我很有安全感。这种安全感到现在我依然还记得很清楚。从再次的与你联络，这种感觉再也找不到了！
以前我真的不明白为何你不能让出一点时间陪我，而使到我感到很生气，一气之下把你甩了！直到前几天我才明白，你是因为我才那么忙的！你连选择工作的地方也是我最喜欢去的。为何以前我没想到呢？我真的很后悔以前这样对你！对不起！！！
那天你生日，我真的很想跟你告白。可是当我给你礼物时，你交代我不要向你告白，所以我就选择不说哦！我是不是很胆小？可是我觉得能够陪在你身边就已经很足够了！爱一个人不需要占有他的！只要你开心，我什么都能做。可能现在已经太迟了吧！因为你的心已经没有我了！无论如何，我还是要谢谢你，因为当我闷时你会叫我出去或鼓励我做一些我应该做的事。
记得，我不会勉强你或什么，我只想你开心。因为你开心那我就会放心！连知道会给人骂我也帮你了，那还有什么可怕的！！！现在只希望那真正的你会再次出现！而我也依然的在等待！